A Journey of One Day #2

A new day dawns rainy, cold. I watch out my window as two tiny yet stout birds find morning sustenance among my backyard plants. One is content to sit on the concrete and enjoy his meal unaware I am ten feet from him. His friends are in the tree above him and beckon him up. They are protected by the thick foliage of this tree and the camouflage it provides.  One or two of them come down and grab a bite quickly then they are gone again. They are no bigger than a small egg.  They seem to have limitless energy. Watching them has brought my hands to life.
I was awake early today. I said goodbye to my darling as he journeyed yet another time the long road to his job. I have the thought in my head to find all the candles we have and organize them and put them somewhere they will be easily accessible. I am prompted to go and buy some more today.  That is done. I sit at my computer and read emails and listen and read uplifting words and one from an interesting lady named Keisha Crowther talking about how the world, earth, is changing and will be changed completely to it’s Heavenly state within 2 years and how we should prepare, change the way we live to reflect only the heart and love and not fear what is coming but glory in it.
It is quiet, peaceful, warm in my house.  Ariana and her friend, Lexia are still asleep. Their school has a fall break this entire week.  I look at my hammock, outside the slider door on the patio, bare of any covering now, waiting out the cold like me. I have such warm, wonderful memories of lying in my hammock feeling the sun on my body, comfortable and relaxed.
I am anticipating the next week to be hard for my body as I deny it the drugs it has had for 6 years now; just a little at a time will I do this so as to not cause severe shock.
I experience tightness in my diaphragm, nausea, sleepiness. It will probably get worse. I know that they are temporary symptoms of withdrawal. I have the power to overcome this and recover my central nervous system. I disengage from the emotions that have kept me living in my past. I move forward one step, one day at a time preparing for tomorrow by living today fully.
I am enjoying the bird life out in my backyard this morning. I’ve seen five different kinds of birds come to drink and eat from my yard even though it is raining.  These are California winter birds.  My cat, Whiskers, has joined me now and is excitedly looking for birds also. She paces to the other side of the room now then leaves because all the birds have gone for now.
I am thankful for this warm, cozy home, for my eyes to see the beauty of the earth, for my hands that create words here and do so many things, for my brain that has the power to heal itself. 
Heavenly Father is with me always, his light and the light of Christ are in me; sustaining me moment to moment just as he sustains these birds. He knows me as I know Him.
I have no doubt that I will recover my health and in a few short years the earth will be renewed with the Savior’s presence and we will all be renewed with perfect bodies; what a thought!
The day is before me. I reverence it as another opportunity to learn and grow and share my love and be better than I was yesterday. 

The day
This day now
Thoughts, actions
Compelling, sustaining
Intellect, consciousness
Beauty, harmony
Thanksgiving, patience
Solitude, humanity
Nature, love,
Forgiving, enduring
Exciting, adventure                                                                                         Family    , neighbors, friends
Black and white kitty
Rain, green trees,
Red and yellow trees
Sky, air, breathe
Awareness, priorities
Prepare, Rest, Play
Enjoy, Remember.
The day.
This day.
Now.                                               


Tracy/ Mom                               
November 23, 2010